Diary of Not a Wimpy Widow

Month: December 2016

  • Solstice Song

    December 18, 2016

    Solstice Song

    In the cold church hall
    The singer tunes his guitar
    And in the empty chair beside me
    Your ghost sits down
    Wearing the same blue shirt
    And khaki pants you wore
    That hot summer night
    Six years and seven months ago
    On our wedding anniversary
    When we came to hear this same singer
    Tune his guitar and sing of
    The holy in everything

    Your ghost hand takes my hand
    Your ghost fingers wrap around mine
    And with your other hand
    If you wished
    You could touch the tear on my cheek
    As the singer sings of the dark and the loss
    And the light in everything

    The guitar thrums
    The air hums with music
    And your ghost breathes my name

  • Candles in the Windows

    December 6, 2016

    This afternoon I placed electric candles in all the windows of the house (good thing it is a small house.)

    The candles in the windows were one of Bill’s favorite Christmas decorations, and although he left much of the Yuletide decorating to his own personal Christmas Genie (whose efforts he applauded and admired) he did help with the traditional candles. They also were the decorations that he liked to go up early in the holiday season and take down very late (as in March or Easter!)

    Now I plug the candles in and test them, replace light bulbs, and place them in the windows by myself.

    So dear Bill, wherever you are, I hope you can see the warm lights of home shining with love from our windows on this dark and rainy night.